Natalie Jane - Intrusive Thoughts

I'm historically heartbroken
Drownin' in my own emotions
One minute away from the breakin' down, down, down
I'm always leavin' empty-handed
No one wants a heart that's damaged
Only know a love that lets me down, down, down

Oh, starin' contest with the walls
I'm givin' in to my intrusive thoughts

What if I never find anybody to love
Or I finally get the chance and I fuck it all up?
'Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave
Woah, what if I get to heaven and it's not even real
And I die before tellin' you how I really feel?
'Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help but think
That maybe love's not for me